Due to the past childhood traumas of mine, integrating and facing the own dark in me as a fledging Lightworker, may be the most difficult part of my awakening, and is why I fear it…because in my past it was destructive and I see it ruin lives and I come to have good grounds to fear it….but facing my own fear is better by far and this is what I learned to confront and control it…because what is repressed, surfaces later…and I have been learning how to integrate it into my consciousness…and that works wonders…and it changes, transforms, and transmute the feelings…to work for me and not against me…being on lockdown because of Covid has let me spend much time working on myself and integrate these negative or darker elements in a better balance/equilibrium/control….so that the Light increases in me or at least the dark is accepted and faced…and doing so makes it much better and easier and more manageable to deal with, confront, face, and above all coming to terms with…and integrating above all….it is not easy nor it is ever…but it becomes more manageable, or at least easier, if not easy….
Childhood traumatic energy that is no longer adaptive or healthy to a mature, grown man must be faced, integrated, and confronted…control it instead of it controlling you…to work for me and not against me…i cannot reject the childhood traumatic energy because it is a part of me…but i can transmute it into something constructive, wholesome….because transforming and transmuting energy is key for me…and by doing this in my daily life the Darkness actually strengthens me and I no longer fear it…i accept it and work with it and make it a friend, a ally, a mirror…it is all good(well not all good, but I know now with a certitude that good can come of bad, believe me and that is a encouraging thought for us all, and i am wounded healer, Lightworker?)…I hope my forthrightness and honesty frees others….to admit and face and confront the darkness in them and thus by doing so, manifest right action and Light and good karma? The Darkness is like the reflected potential light energy of the Moon and the Sun is needed as a balance or corrective force, the darkness is in service to the light…and light makes dark a friend and an ally, and fully accepts it…
My Song of Awakened Consciousness:
Light in dark and dark in Light,
Rising by dying, dying by Rising,
Contradiction is an illusion, Duality is an illusion, Separation is an illusion.
Balance is my Song, Balance of difference, balance of sameness,
Within, my dear soul, within is a treasure beyond price…
Within the self is all we need…
The Song within…Enter into the Song…and Enter, my dear soul…
Let it shine forth for all to see…what is hidden will become revealed and what is revealed will become hidden…but in all lifetimes different but also the same…many lifetimes and many selves…yet always me…in them all….
Die by living and dying by livng
Rising and yet also descending, descending but also Rising,
Emotion and Reason,
Spirit and materiality,
Everything is gift and a gift is everything, grateful and gratitude…within one gift of Gifts…the Self in its pristine, purity…
And May the Light always be with you in your Dark and the Dark in the Light…
Shine…shine…shine!
Shine! Shine! Shine!
Immensity in the Self, Nothingness in the Self…
Full, yet empty, empty but full
Kindness underlays them all and brings them all to completion…and Kindness is the Song itself…for a kind awakened soul awakens others and an unkind awakened soul only awakens themselves…yet within the Self is awakening itself….paradox of paradox’s but already complete and completed…but also potential of Energy…potential itself…realizing itself…
Freedom….freedom within…freedom of spirit, freedom of inquiry, freedom of action, freedom of equality, freedom of conscience, freedom of right action, freedom of love, freedom of freedom….yet harm no one?
Oh, dear spirit, arise and Shine forth! Shine forth to all! How can I not sing?
Voronwe, The Elf in the human body 