I haven’t written yet about the fascinating, intriguing and sometimes frustrating and challenging fact that I am a fairy-Elven hybrid(but my Elven part is far the stronger at the deepest level of me and it is as an Elven soul I primarily identify with, although the part of me that is fairy is also me and I have learned repression is no good). The fairy side is passionate, vivacious, lively. And also somewhat wild. more on this later, but my primary Elven soul/higher Self looks at this with concern and knows it is young energy and immature energy, and my Elven soul is an very mature, serious, and solemn old soul type although playful, spontaneous, and child-like and even innocence and purity…and a dry sense of humour…and the fairy part is a secondary or derivative energy of mine that is almost unconscious and that can be bad for me…but it has its role and part, albeit the lesser role, the lesser part…because being nobler, higher, wiser, more compassionate, and kinder as an Elf is like, is the better way for me and is my true identity. Being an Elven spirit/soul resonates with me much stronger and is primary and predominant but not to put too fine a line on it because all parts of me are good, necessary, and healthy, it just needs synergy and balance…and being a Elf gives me this and I have always been like this… deep down, truly, and vibrates at the deepest, strongest level…(and I must write blog on being an Aries sign, Fire element, and that is a whole other struggle, lol 🙂 ) I need water element to complement me and being an Elf gives me this?
It is as an older soul or an ancient soul of a Elven type that resonates strongest with me on a much more deeper and intuitive level. This Higher Elven Self of mine looks with sometimes with wry amusement and sometimes reservation at this fairy side of myself because it is very different from my usual Elven energy and this fairy side comes from my father and his somewhat broken ways and his legacy of trauma, this is the side that is darker and more wild and unpredictable. But repression of this was and is bad for me. I feared it too much and I let this fear prevent me from accessing and integrating my Elven energy. But now I found the fairy side sometimes prevents me from …. Thus I have come full circle(and yet another evidence of my hybrid, many-sided nature?), and the Elven energy integrates and completes and perfects me? I have Awakened that I have always been an Elven soul and always will be and that I have lived a previous lifetime(or possibly lifetimes).
This needs and I need further investigation, study ,and reflection. As I said in a earlier blog, I am at the beginning of this awakening/ascension/Enlightenment as an Elven soul with some fairy elements sometimes and I need to continue to learn, grow, experience my awakening and Enlightenment leading potentially and possibly to Ascension. But I have learnt many things already(nature consciousness, New Earth, the fact that Ascension and Enlightenment are real, the fact that fairy and Elven energies exist in me and Stoic endurance/perseverance, kindness as the path to Enlightenment, and steady composure and calmness) …and many things yet to be learnt…yet I have also learned so far that enjoying the beauty and radiance(inner nature) of the journey and smell and appreciate the flowers and trees..so far, so good and so far…I am a powerful but kind, introverted but compassionate, strong but gentle being…perhaps possibly I am most taken after Elrond as an archetype, a model, a mandala, a example…I need to write about and explore Elrond further in future posts…but no matter, as a Elven soul I can wait…it seems I am good at that…to me I need to forgive myself for getting lost in time and apparent change in this current lifetime but no more….I have awakened or beginning to awaken to knowing who I am and always have been…an Elf in a human body living an apparent human life in a humanoid life…how intriguing, how interesting, and how curious….
…and of course , I am not judging anyone and remember its about what you identify with and what you resonate as and at…this is merely sharing my journey/story…and I’d like to learn and share yours…
good travels and always may a light shine upon you always…and please accept kind invitation…
Voronwe, The Elf in the human body 